Now, 2014 was not entirely a vortex of awful, I finally finished an Associates' Degree and am on my way to a four-year college and the clarity with which I now see my life and inform my decisions as to how to govern it has been invaluable. However, I take a masochistic delight in revisiting my foibles and mistakes from the past twelve months.
January: At approximately the middle of the month, I rear-ended a car on Bloomfield Avenue and had the privilege of watching the front of my car hit a trailer hitch turn into a hunk of useless accordion-shaped metal in the span of a millisecond. During my most delusional and vulnerable, I managed to ask a body shop how much my car would cost to be repaired and I was ready to do a snow angel on the train tracks when told it was four figures. Things learned from this event: Do not drive in flip-flops and people ask if you want to pray out loud on suicide hotlines.
February/March: Worked consistently in an understaffed and overworked autistic class that left me feeling like a failure and burned out. Started this blog. Oh, got hospitalized for a week after I had an awful withdrawal symptom from going back on anti-depressants. Got the flu, took too many liquid shits to count, joined a counseling program. Things I learned: People who work in the psych ward of hospitals are very patient, and there is a purpose as to why privacy must be respected in those scenarios.
May: Received persona non grata status from someone's house for reasons I shall not go into lest it be read by the wrong people. I apologize for nothing that led to it, though. Things I learned: People who cannot discern humor are a waste of my time.
To be fair, the first half of the year was a lot of shitty while the second half was pretty unremarkable. I had a nice case of mental Ebola and fear before eventually allowing my guard to come down somewhat. Yes, this post is personal, but if you want to use it as cudgel against my character, so be it. I just do not give a shit what the vast majority of people I encounter care about me.
Merry Christmas and go fuck yourselves with good cheer.